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Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 00:46:53 GMT

I did what i said i wouldnt do...neglet my xanga.It has been a month or so since i updated.

Kassidy is now a lil over a month old.She is so wonderful such a great feeling to have her here.She is such a good baby its unbeliveable she have slept all night since she was 5 days old.She is up nearly up allday and becoming so strong.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 20:36:07 GMT

I dont feel like typeing so ill paste my myspace blog entry.:)

but there is something in side of that needs to come out.....

:( still nothing.

Tuesday and friday i have nst testing.Where they hook you up to montiors for about an hour or so to check babys heart beat and to check fluid.

She just doesnt want to come out.NOTHING has worked

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 23:08:53 GMT

Thursday threw most of saturday at Wills came home saturday to a babyshower.Everyone said i gave that WTF look.It was so much fun.I loved seeing family i dont get to see all the time and get to sit down and talk to.Kassidy got so much stuff.She better not pull a Binky.We call it that cuz my cusion binky(bobbi) who will be 14 soon WAS to be a boy the utrasound proved it all she was all boy and she came out and boom she was a girl.Kassidy has so much pink and all this cute stuff we got just about all the stuff we need all we need is the carseat which we will get in a couple days.All day i been busy organizing it all so much stuff i hardly can find a place to put it all.Binky putted togetther the take a long swing Will,will do he bassinet which is so cute its whinne the pooh!and the bouncer.All we need is carseat and batteries! :)

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 08:13:34 GMT

Some will say am not talking clearly or these labor pains are getting to much or if your will am acting like a child.How is me having contraction 20 mins apart and not going to the hospital about acting like a child?I already called the hospital and he was in the room when my doctor said the same thing.'Call and come in when they are 3-5 mintues apart,or if your water breaks.'His excuse for not coming over today is because Bill the guy he lives with is giving him 5 dollars to carry a computer in to the house for someone and to do things for him.A meassy five dollars for him to get a freaking pack of ciggrates is more important then me and his child!

Cant you tell am trying not to cuss?Be proud

I told him Ill try to have her on your time,and if i go today or anyother day you better hope someone calls and tells you or whatever cuz am not calling no more.Then i hung up.

Am going to try and take it easy so i can have this baby on his time which is like friday.I will try to not get to stressed out but austin all he does is stress me out.Auntunm if she hates it or not can mostly be in the play pin mostly all day, austin can just sit there on the floor since my parents said he is not aloud on the new furnisture.If he doesnt like it oh well he can sit there and scream and cry like someone is killing him all he wants cuz really i can handle it i know how to tune people out. Sad huh?

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 03:08:27 GMT

today was good.Had a doctors apointment.Had the exam and the group strep b test nearly pasted out from being on my back during the exam.All is good she said when i come in next week since i start weekly i can have her anytime after that.i cant wait the nerve pains on my left side are getting to much.i know its TMI but am pretty sure i lost my muscus plug or most of it atleast.Next friday is my apointment next saturday is my babyshower so maybe saturday night or sunday try having this baby.I will try anything but castor oil.We also picked out a new name breanna dallas just got to old for us to fast i got tried of it.Kassidy Marie leeson is the final choice.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 15:14:59 GMT

Am sad very sad i feel like crying.Will can be such an ass sometimes.

Right now untill Jan 1st when we move in with robin and chris, we live apart.It puts alot of stress on me cuz i dont get alot of help frim my parents so i need his help.He knows i get a lot of pain and with babysitting it gets worser to where by noon i can barely walk.All i ask is for a couple of hours for his help.Am not asking him to do my job from me like he says i do.He only does a little bit like carry a basket down two filghts of stairs so i can wash them.Yet thats a problem and it will take him a week or so to do it or i end up doing it my self and i hurt my self more that way.Like to day i called at 7 to wake him up like he asked me to he doesnt call to 11:45 asking what i wanted.Says he been up since 9.What if i called cuz i was in labor?!he waits 3 hours after he decides to wake up to call and asked what i wanted.Am not going to bother calling him no more.If hes not here or at work when i do go in to labor am not going to call him it will be his own faught.The stress is really really killing me the pain on my left side is killing me.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 11:55:21 GMT

Austin is sleeping and autunm is in her playpin.She hates it in there but she has to make due till the living room is done.She will be walking soon right now she doesnt want you to let go of her hands as she walks as long as she has something to hold on to she will walk anywhere.When i go to the store tomorrew i need to get a tub mat and stove protectors.Why?When she takes a bath here cuz she gets so messy a rag wont due,and now that she holds on to things and walks around she tries to reach and play with the stove .

I took pictures ill put them up tomorrew.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 09:08:20 GMT

My vaction is over the kids will be back today.I missed those lil shorties!

Guess what happen?Like the best thing ever.Wills mother left.Just up and left and want to deleware to live with her best friend,her ex the guy that uses her,cross dresser Piper.There is nothing wrong with him being a cross dresser I do have an uncle nacey you know,but thats another story.Piper he just dont do it right. Anyway she left Bill her feince.She took her daughter Sam,and her mother.She didnt even say bye to Will or Charles.Will just doest give a shit happy she is gone Charles is to but he is very pissed as well.The whole family is gonna be pissed when they find out she took mom-mom with out saying she was.Her excuse was she doesnt want her sister branda to find her.Yea well what about the people that do love her and dont use her?i can see a big thing going down about this and it doesnt look pretty.

In better news I think Bre dropped.She isnt kicking me in the ribs no more.i gained all the wieght i was suppose to remember back in june when the doctor said i need to start putting on weight.Well i did this pregancy i gained 42 pounds.All together 170 lbs.The good thing you can barely notice,looks like ill be back to DDR after this.Yay i do miss my DDR lots and lots.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 16:43:55 GMT

Wow its the end of September all ready.Its getting closer to November the 1st and she will be here.Will wants her here on Oct 31st.Thats just a month away.The fear the nervousness of it all is becoming more worse more fear of pushing this being out of me its like 'OMG!!' I guess this is just averge fears huh?

In away i cant wait to see her yet i want oct to last a lil longer.Maybe its all just for the orange kit kats.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 03:02:22 GMT

This is this years banned books of 2005 highlighted is books I read.Esp looking at the books i read i dont find nothing wrong with them.Why do people ban these books?Do they know what these books are REALLY about or are they to busy being offened and everything else to read between the lines of these books.

Scary Stories (Series) by Alvin Schwartz
Daddy’s Roommate by Michael Willhoite
I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou
The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
Harry Potter (Series) by J.K. Rowling
Forever by Judy Blume
Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Paterson
Alice (Series) by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor
Heather Has Two Mommies by Leslea Newman
My Brother Sam is Dead by James Lincoln Collier and Christopher Collier
The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
The Giver by Lois Lowry
It’s Perfectly Normal by Robie Harris
Goosebumps (Series) by R.L. Stine
A Day No Pigs Would Die by Robert Newton Peck
The Color Purple by Alice Walker
Sex by Madonna
Earth’s Children (Series) by Jean M. Auel
The Great Gilly Hopkins by Katherine Paterson
A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle
Go Ask Alice by Anonymous
Fallen Angels by Walter Dean Myers
In the Night Kitchen by Maurice Sendak
The Stupids (Series) by Harry Allard
The Witches by Roald Dahl
The New Joy of Gay Sex by Charles Silverstein
Anastasia Krupnik (Series) by Lois Lowry
The Goats by Brock Cole
Kaffir Boy by Mark Mathabane
Blubber by Judy Blume
Killing Mr. Griffin by Lois Duncan
Halloween ABC by Eve Merriam
We All Fall Down by Robert Cormier
Final Exit by Derek Humphry
The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood
Julie of the Wolves by Jean Craighead George
The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison
What’s Happening to my Body? Book for Girls: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Daughters by Lynda Madaras
To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
Beloved by Toni Morrison
The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton
The Pigman by Paul Zindel
Bumps in the Night by Harry Allard
Deenie by Judy Blume
Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes
Annie on my Mind by Nancy Garden
The Boy Who Lost His Face by Louis Sachar
Cross Your Fingers, Spit in Your Hat by Alvin Schwartz
A Light in the Attic by Shel Silverstein
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
Sleeping Beauty Trilogy by A.N. Roquelaure (Anne Rice)
Asking About Sex and Growing Up by Joanna Cole
Cujo by Stephen King
James and the Giant Peach by Roald Dahl
The Anarchist Cookbook by William Powell
Boys and Sex by Wardell Pomeroy
Ordinary People by Judith Guest
American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis
What’s Happening to my Body? Book for Boys: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Sons by Lynda Madaras
Are You There, God? It’s Me, Margaret by Judy Blume
Crazy Lady by Jane Conly
Athletic Shorts by Chris Crutcher
Fade by Robert Cormier
Guess What? by Mem Fox
The House of Spirits by Isabel Allende
The Face on the Milk Carton by Caroline Cooney
Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Lord of the Flies by William Golding
Native Son by Richard Wright
Women on Top: How Real Life Has Changed Women’s Fantasies by Nancy Friday
Curses, Hexes and Spells by Daniel Cohen
Jack by A.M. Homes
Bless Me, Ultima by Rudolfo A. Anaya
Where Did I Come From? by Peter Mayle
Carrie by Stephen King
Tiger Eyes by Judy Blume
On My Honor by Marion Dane Bauer
Arizona Kid by Ron Koertge
Family Secrets by Norma Klein
Mommy Laid An Egg by Babette Cole
The Dead Zone by Stephen King
The Adventures of Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain
Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison
Always Running by Luis Rodriguez
Private Parts by Howard Stern
Where’s Waldo? by Martin Hanford
Summer of My German Soldier by Bette Greene
Little Black Sambo by Helen Bannerman
Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett
Running Loose by Chris Crutcher
Sex Education by Jenny Davis
The Drowning of Stephen Jones by Bette Greene
Girls and Sex by Wardell Pomeroy
How to Eat Fried Worms by Thomas Rockwell
View from the Cherry Tree by Willo Davis Roberts
The Headless Cupid by Zilpha Keatley Snyder
The Terrorist by Caroline Cooney
Jump Ship to Freedom by James Lincoln Collier and Christopher Collier

Banned book week is sep 24 till the 30th so pick up a banned book and fight for the right to read a good book!Because god damint censorship is wrong!